You know, i do wish my parents were slightly more open minded and listen carefully till I finish before jumping into conclusions or try correcting me hastily because I really like sharing my thoughts, especially with people i love. Unfortunately, I lost interest in talking once they start to pop in a piece of their own advice before I finish.. It'll be nice if I could talk about my day, my problems and worries every night or at least per week and not getting negative remarks or retorts before I could even speak my thoughts out properly. I do need a listener.

I envy him having long chats with his mom every night. I mean every night! =(

Valentines Day..
Went out with Xying, Ah Ti, Andy, Su Yee..
Arrived at Sushi King to find it full.. We patiently waited and was fortunate to get a table in the end.. Great, we wanted to order but they tell us they ran out of rice.. What's sushi without rice? Damn! Tons of orders came late and the shop is about to close so we decided to cancel the remaining order.. Unfortunately, they kept us from doing so.. Rushed the orders.. Serving soba noodles or sth of that sort with cold soup and a piece of plastic inside.. ==" Worse thing is, when my friends called the waitress over to make a complaint she said, " Yee.. Plastic.." when we asked her.. "What is this inside my noodle?!" I couldn't help laughing my head off.. Well, WE couldn't help laughing despite feeling annoyed.. The forcefully rushed out all the orders so we had to pay for everything we ordered.. But ah well, what to do..

Was asked to go have a drink at Maurice the previous night.. But considering that I'll be the perfect disruption due to the need of getting home early.. I declined the offer.. Well, they had lots of chivas so luckily I wasn't there.. since I'm still an amateur drinker.. so they kinda celebrated Vday early.. Every single ladies were given roses..

Kinda touched that Ah Ti got me mine too when we went out just now. Thanks a lot! Hugs!

So Andy is a new friend i met.. A junior of mine too! And a magician!! hahhaha!! His card tricks are kinda amazing.. I mean, i did not expect to see one that up close in Kuching.. LOL!! This Ah Moi here very sakai bah! His wallet got fire keluar some more before the card we selected moved from the stack into the wallet.. Aiti!!

Sim Shyr Haw.. Sigh.. Still miss you, your hugs, your kisses, your smile, your scent, your shoulders.. But ah well.. Guess we weren't meant to be.. I wasn't very much in love with you when we first started because I couldn't have faith.. I fear you would leave me the moment I say I Love You.. But I learned to start loving you despite who you are.. Too bad there wasn't sufficient determination.. I didn't do my part well either.. I just hope you won't forget me that easily like you did with your past lovers.. For I know you'll stay forever in my memory.. Always.. You were special and unique in your own way.. Wish that things were different, wish that you were here.. Be healthy and happy always.. I shall bury you deep inside and move on..

Dong Li Huo Che - Na Jiu Zhe Yang Ba

动力火车 - 那就这样吧

为什么感觉上你好像越离我越远了？？？ 不要跟我说想爱但不能爱的遗憾什么的！！！！ 那个是努力坚持后还是没结果后才能说得！！！ 讨厌！！ 老天别戏弄我好吗？？ 就算一开始是我不好，虽然一开始我很害怕，虽然一开始我很不喜欢他懦弱的态度，但到最后我还是学习接受，配合，迁就了。。甚至对他的感情也越来越深了。。 你为何要在这个时候给我如此考验。。把他距离给拉远了还让此事发生？？ 我恨，我讨厌！ 每当我决定不顾一切，勇敢地跳落悬崖，事情就一一出现。。爸~~~ 快点回来救我吧！！ 就靠您了！

you are wrong.. you say if it's my father's choice i wouldn't be that sad.. If it were because of him, I would be even more unhappy because I would never never never want him to be the reason I lose someone important that would make me regret for life.. I dowan to look at daddy next time n feel a burning pain inside of me that reminds me of how i lose you..

Woke up early this morning, busied myself with house chores.. took an uneasy nap in the afternoon.. woken up several times by a few messages (unfortunately not from the one i was waiting for T^T) Gave up sleeping after the phone call from xying.. been eating, fb-ing, keroro-ing, skipping, rolling, sitting, standing, yet i couldn't get rid of that horrid sensation i feel at the pit of my stomach.

Damn it! Daddy, i need to learn how to walk, to fall and to learn how to get back up on my feet on my own.. You are being overprotective.. How am i suppose to grow up this way? Trust me this once ok? I promise i won't get hurt.. and even if it does not work out in the end, i swear i can deal with it better this time.. But how do I tell u all these before you start jumping into your own conclusions.. Give me a sign...

My dear, you are probably mad at me for putting you in such an ugly situation which tampered your ego greatly. But I just didn't want to give up that easily in the first place nor now. How do i fix things? How can i make it better?

为什么每次一个月过后总会有变化？好像上次那样。。早安没了，信息少了，电话少了。。用了一个月时间适应的环境，怎么会又起了变化。。可能再多一个月又结束？交往这东东是不是假期没事做拿来打发时间的其中一个活动？==“ 如果是这样的话，我会彻底绝望的！！！！ 啊啊啊！！！！

好啦！没事啦！！是我想太多~~