Pictures from last night:

my baju that night

me and desmond

Taken today~ ^^ due to boredom~ XD

Sit opposite them and cincai snap.

XY during photo shooting

Another scene with diff clothes
I changed view~ now taking on their side..

XY taking photos (sampai baju pun lasap ki)

Looked up and saw a bird. Lots of those flying around.

Another bird joined, showing me it's pigu =.="
Kinda dark the pics.

Noob pics taken haha.. for fun and to pass time.

Celaka!! Today SI BEH hot!! =.="

Went to Siniawan zuo bai. But was better than the day before at Permai. Why? Because I bukan model so I don't need to feel ridiculous when I'm of not much help, TeeHee!!

Oh! Wei Rong is still so shiny, nice, funny and his laughter is still the same. But somehow we can't go back to when we first knew each other in Arang. Maybe different paths taken, had a different life and different friends. So our topic wasn't so mutual anymore. Sigh~ but still it's nice to get to see an old friend, also a VVIP in my life. Asked XY to take a picture of us at McD for remembrance. Don't know when will next time be. Haha!! Fourth Picture taken with him.. =)

XY's another model is a new face. Attractive too but kinda short. A mix with beautiful eyes, lashes that curls upwards. Nice~ Look fierce and a bit bad boy bad boy look. XD but has a very bright and nice smile. =) He looked a bit like Andrew Lee from Batu Lintang. Hahah!

Kim sick so no one teman me. A bit bored and very hot but still ok. I'm in a patient mood today ba.

Lance asked me if I could do some photo shooting today last night but I'm already following XY.. So I said maybe next time.. Hahah!

Just now he said something about dip hair in kolam n flip with water.. Siao! KOLAM WATER wor~ at Matang wildlife sana pulak! ><

Last night was good. I got too exhausted that I slept so soundly. Something I haven't felt for a very long time. Wish tonight will be the same. =)

Had a really busy day today. Went photo shooting with XY and Kim at Permai. Kim brought her admirer "Mr. Chai" XD. Bie brought his cousin and cousin's friend along. So envy them can be so natural in front of the camera while I feel thoroughly ridiculous. I feel like wood. =.=" Weather was hot and XY wasn't very patient and I got kinda frustrated and felt useless at the same time plus kinda mad at myself for not able to go near him and talk properly and him kinda occupied and not much chance to talk. Manyak barang. I know I know. I'm very susah punya orang~ Then we left Permai kinda late and I'm late for practice at San Sheng and got 2 phone calls from desmond, shouting. =.=" I wasn't really in a great mood *blames weather* and having people shouting at me made it all worse. I was scold kepo~ another word I dislike besides 'hiao' when I'm not being such at all. I know he was stress and I felt bad about being late &*blames bad mood*. I'm partly helping XY and because I'm not all that decent, part of my motive is to see more of Bie before we both get real busy when school starts.

Sweating like hell after one last practice at san sheng. Took another bath, but starts sweating again soon after that so I sat alone looking at other performers practicing, trying not to move so much. After that, we changed and prepare ourselves. I did my eyeliner and mascara while hui yin help me with my eye shadows. Yuen Hau did my blush and powder. Desmond did my hair. I have to admit, it's kinda nice to have people doing my hair for me. I owes like having my hair washed at salons though it only happens once a year when I go straighten my hair. Desmond is kinda nice in some cases lol! Kinda like a bro. Like the one I have at home. Gets on your nerves sometimes, kacau you or laugh at you at other times and can be nice and caring to you when they feel like it. Haha!! I did not dare to eat before the performance because I dun wan tummy to get upset. But after the dance macam gastric ki.

Lance came. That day, after our photo shooting session, I told him I need to rush to temple when he asked if I wanna go eat. Then he ask if I'm buddhist, I said no. He asked what I'm doing there I said helping a friend cause I feel very paisei to tell people I go learn dancing. =o= But then I reluctantly admit what I was up to and he asks if he could go see. Didn't expect him to really go until he sounded serious today. He went to 2 wrong temples tim. My phone battery was flat so I couldn't answer any call or reply any msg. Was too busy and did not get a chance to talk much. Couldn't find him in the crowd either and I was worried that desmond or hui yin will leave early so I hastily borrowed a phone from hui yin when I found her and called dad to fetch me home. Did not watch till the end. Teok say bo xim tim. Hahah!

Father was being nice though I made him wait outside because I didn't know he reached due to a flat battery. Maybe he knows I'm tired for being busy whole day so he is more concerned bout me not eating or getting rests that he saved his usual nagging. Told me there's still fish left. Asked me to take a bath and sleep in his room for awhile because he's going out again and mom had switched on the air conditioner. X)

The dance was I ok I guess cause the applause was kinda loud. I kinda lost balance at a part where I have to stand on one leg because my leg was shaking badly. Not very cun in certain parts but as a first timer overall should be ok gok gua.. Nid to see video to know. >< The make up was ok. Not as scary as expected.

Had a chat with Bie. =)

Now, I'm dead beat. Following XY up to Siniawan tomorrow. Take a look at daddy's hometown. Haha!! See XY photo shooting. Shun bian go meet meet wei rong. XD Needs rest badly. Good night world. Sweet dreams Bie~ Hugs~

o che got serious after last night.. wasn't very visible last night but was shocked to see it this morning!! Tomolo gonna be last day.. Haih.. Hope it goes well.. Not enough practice..



Hmm.. spent an afternoon helping desmond blow up and tie balloons for his bro's wedding till 2 fingers bled.. desmond's one finger bled too. @@

Haih~ Tired day.. Didb't even have a chance to sit and rest since morning.

Woke up at 830 to prepare for school. Registered and got my timetable. 6 subjects, the timetable looks kinda packed.

Then went to Bie's after having lunch with siang, lian, vincent, n desmond. Went to take my art stuff that I left at his house and go kacau kacau him oso. Wanna hug hug him before I leave but Sigh~ Then realized barang no ambik and turned back again. Took my stuff and went home. I asked him if he wants to go Permai and Bie said he can make it. =) but he complains too early~ Haha!

Ate lunch and was nearly late for my appointment with Lance. He asked me if I could be his model. He wanna get some practice and I agree. I mean, not many people will ask me that cause I am ms not photogenic. And sure enough, the ms not photogenic is a noob model. He told me 200++ pics only 31 usable. Sobs Sobs.. Too rigid.. wrong clothing oso.. Haha!

After the session ended. Rushed home, bathed and father drop me at san sheng. Knees tambah a few o ches again. =( costume show tummy tim. All fatss~~ upsetting but at least I'm not the only one.. XD Had a drink with desmond, shao liang and you qiang before heading home. Gonna take a bath after I finish this and maybe get a good night's sleep. =)

Bryan Adams (Everything I Do) I Do It For You Lyrics

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Look into my eyes - you will see
What you mean to me
Search your heart - search your soul
And when you find me there you'll search no more

Don't tell me it's not worth tryin' for
You can't tell me it's not worth dyin' for
You know it's true
Everything I do - I do it for you

Look into your heart - you will find
There's nothin' there to hide
Take me as I am - take my life
I would give it all - I would sacrifice

Don't tell me it's not worth fightin' for
I can't help it - there's nothin' I want more
You know it's true
Everything I do - I do it for you

There's no love - like your love
And no other - could give more love
There's nowhere - unless you're there
All the time - all the way

Oh - you can't tell me it's not worth tryin' for
I can't help it - there's nothin' I want more
I would fight for you - I'd lie for you
Walk the wire for you - yeah I'd die for you

You know it's true
Everything I do - I do it for you

Had a chat with lance last night.. LOL.. crapping, talking about similar pesonalities and sharing life's dramas as usual.. he shared most of his last night. Saying that it's fair since I shared mine. He actually thank me for listening and sharing, saying he appreciate it. Which was nice.. I mean how many people will actually thank you for listening? But it's how I felt when people listened, I feel thankful too. =)

Aiks!! Stomach ache again~

wuwuwu~~ now i feel bad for making ppl feel bad.. next time nid control a bit liao.. haih~

Sienz.. ear swollen liao.. the result of wearing fake earrings.. >< for few days in a row.. haih.. Eyes oso not doing well, cause wear contact lens exceeding 8 hours everyday since the first day of CNY. Knees also badly bruised due to practice because I'm too noob.

Ah, so he received the chocs~ ^^ I've never try those before.. next time I should buy some for myself.. XD Wying say it's delicious, her friend gave her some for stress relieving purposes before the exams.. Haha!

Ah well... I overreacted.. zzzzzz... Sigh~ Sorry~ Did not mean to deprive you off sleep. T^T

Today went to watch Percy Jackson and the Lightning Thief with bro, rachel and bro's two other friends. The movie was nice. Especially when I like those Greek mythology when I was little. Got pretty excited when I recognize most of the Gods and Goddesses name. As usual, I am more attracted to the Luke character, the actual lightning thief. X3 Annabeth is stunning.. Percy is slightly like a Zac Efron or a Tom Welling character. Not much of my liking. Even Zeus, Poseidon and Chiron looks more appealing. Ok Ok,I admit, I also have a thing for mature men. XD

Uh oh!! And Ryan, the yoyo guy from camp. He was sitting next to my bro. I only saw him when he stood up. He couldn't recognize me though. He stood there and stare at me after I waved my hand at him. LOL. Funny. Sometimes find me and invite me to his yoyo performance which I didn't have time to go but then can't really recognize me when actually meet me in person. =.= or maybe I surprised him? O.O <<<< his face looked like this .. ahahaha...~~~

WHAT THE HECK? WHAT THE HELL? WHAT THE FUCK? I DON'T FRIGGIN BITE AND I'M NOT A GOD DAMNED DISEASE!! NEED TO SIAM THAT FAR AWAY FROM ME? WHAT I DID FRIGGIN WRONG TO FRIGGIN DESERVE THIS? IF IT'S ONLY ME WHO FEEL THIS WAY NEVERMIND, EVEN OTHERS NOTICE. SHIT SHIT SHIT!!

sIGH~ came to release stress.. good night evil world, I hate you. Hope I needn't have to wake up too early and face reality again so soon.. Fuck!

sigh~ not angry, just hurt and disappointed and sad.. T^T

Yesterday two open houses.. One at angel's one at leefeng's. Went to ah wei's house and saw everyone gathering there already. ahhhhhh~~ ah wei got another new pal for lancer!! A pure black doggy with shining coat too.. so beautiful. wish i could take him home. I'm so in love~~ Ah wei's dog is always so healthy looking, huge wiuth shining coat and no smelly doggy scent too.. Then we head out to angel's.. Stayed for nearly 3 hours LOL. then dennis sent me and wying home to change. ah hog then fetch me and wying to lee feng's at night. After that the rest went home while i followed ah wei, yheng, datou to yheng's house.. yeeheng's house is even better.. I played with yheng's hamster, his cat (but she is too fierce she glared at me when i touched her) , and yheng's dog. The cat too proud for hamsters. she did not even bother to attack it when yheng placed it of top of her head. Yheng so naughter. Tell me his hamster got 'big eggs', big balls actually.. and then say it's too shy to show me itself so he lift the hamster up to show me.. =.="

Tomolo night going to MBO to watch a movie with wying, soo soo, irwin, boon yee and may wong.. Form 6 friends. I'm surprised they invited me. must be because of wying. haha!

Btw, when is lian lian coming back? me not yt visit lkw frens. wanna do it in a group ba.. >.<"

Today did not go to Wei Rong's house. But then met him at Yheng's aunt's. It was unexpected and I was kinda surprised. I smiled, waved and I was actually starting to shake. I didn't know I can still get nervous. But it's normal I think for we haven't seen each other for a long time. Really shining like a star, getting brighter everytime I see him. Today he's with blue contact lens some more. Outshone every bloke in the area like always. Haha! There's always a mixture of happiness and sadness after every encounter with him. The 'so near yet so far feeling' is always there. We didn't talk. He was quietly standing there too, glowing. Even as friends he also seem unreachable, too much distance and not meeting each other that we weren't able to talk much with each other anymore. Couldn't get back to the time when I first knew him, which I really missed. He changed. Getting better. God really does love him. Well, who doesn't. He left quite soon. Sigh. As usual... First house was wying's, then yheng's aunt's, followed by dear Mr Tan who kept asking when he get to see Bie, then to sze hog's, seng siang's and lastly chuk moi's.. Now I'm home. They are getting irritating. Asking to see Bie. But how la. Haih..

Wah! Today 4 girls the rest boys.. Quite a group but kinda split after Mr Tan's. Me, Wying, Chuk Moi, Ah Jame(s), Chun How, Ah Wei, Datou (Ah Wei's lui), Jackson, Ah Hog, KV, Seng Siang, Sie How, Yheng, Dennis, Boon Cheng.. Did I miss out anyone? XY, Kim and Laisy came afterwards but we got separated. Wying still my bestie ( I was afraid she would change), Ah Jame getting better looking and seemed even taller @@ (he's already so tall), Chun How still undeniably a lengzai, Jackson too, Ah Wei getting larger everytime I see him XD, Sie How, Boon cheng, KV getting better looking, Yheng cute as usual, Seng siang, Ah Hog, no change, Ah Denn fitter but then when speaks still d same =.=, Chuk Moi becoming more lady like which is nice.. Datou I sometimes see her at LKW so not much to say. I oso dunno her very well. Haha! TCP (Mr.Tan) looks very young and handsome today haha (cause he got his hair dyed). Surprised Jame Jame didn't bring Crystal and Chun How didn't bring his. Last year they did. This year dun think I get to see Wei Rong again unless I got lucky LOL. Cause mostly I get to see only once a year.. If lucky twice. Actually the rest also the same la just that probability to meet them higher than meeting him.

Bie, when will I get to see you orhzz~~

Will Wying and Al get together again? She really needs him I guess. Al, do you feel the same? You took the trouble sending her a bday msg though careless enough to leave out ur name. Or was that done purposely to get her to reply you? Too bad the msg didn't went through. You know, I've been wondering about your feelings for her. I did asked you long time ago but I know I wouldn't get an answer from you. Because I know you, and you wont reveal unless if Wying asks you in person. Haha! Wying says she doesn't deserve you cz you are too good. But I think both of you are very good and deserve each other. That break up was something I definitely did not and never expected until it happened.

I feel really horrible that as your best friend, wying, you couldn't share all ur worries and problems and sadness and ur quarrels with him with me. If it weren't for the fact that you worry about getting me hurt because I used to have feelings for Al too I would've been able to be there for you. I didn't understand and was hurt you shared everything with XY instead until I told you about my feelings and knew the reason why you did not choose me to be ur listener. It's probably because of my behaviour earlier on when I first knew you were both together. I kinda find it hard to accept that time because I had asked both of you constantly about your feelings for each other before I let myself in more deeply but both of you denied it. So I let myself in only to find out. But I wasn't mad for too long my dears, for I still want you both as my friends. What is there to gain if I turn my back on both of you? I'll lose my bestie and a good friend. Guess you didn't know that I've already stopped being upset and was already happy for the both of you and you cared so much for me you did not share with me what you thought could have hurt me. It's been so long and you are so not ever him. And it pains me to see it.

I know I used to be so not ever Wei Rong but then even if he's still kinda special, he's not how he used to mean to me anymore. At least I do not care as much as I used to anymore. I told wying about how wei rong had not appeared in my dream ever since I'm with Bie and now that only Bie appears. Cz Wei rong is no longer the person I cared most. I wonder if Mr Tan would bring us over to his Wei rong's place this year. I avoided last year although I actually wanted to see him very much. This time I wanna meet him as a friend and no more pain in the heart or puffy eyes.

Today is kinda boring. Only went to dua pek's house.. been sleeping the whole day.. A few of daddy's friends came and now he's out going who knows where. Yesterday was better.. got quite a lot of angpaos.. Wasn't expected cz I'm kinda old dy. Mom kept telling, ' Aiya, no need la.. They so old liao.." ZZZZ she just dun wanna bao and giv back.. She say mafan.. =.="

XY bought a rm169 Jennifer Lopez perfume as a birthday n farewell gift for leefeng and ask ppl to share. Not many people are happy about the price but then accepted cz it's leefeng. Should have gotten her something she can use in Aussie. Don't think she uses perfumes. Never mind. It's her 21st n she's throwing a party. so it's decent enough. Haha! Not much opinion dy.. Too used to dear XY's pattern.. Many bunga.

Wying asked about Valentines and about whether she'll get to see Bie. I said 'I'm not sure'.

Tomorrow going to Mr Tan's place.. can't wait to meet dear chuk moi moi n my dear Wying! Hehe! Mr Tan! Cant wait for your si beh cold jokes either.

Been more cheerful lately, not due to the bloody CNY season of course. It's thanks to my dear bro. Don't think I can live without him. Been talking craps, singing craps, shooting craps at each other all this while. Been making a lot of noise I think neighbours will sue me from left right centre. Haha!

Aaron called and wished me Happy Valentines Day few minutes before 12 am. Asking if he could spend the few minutes with me. I think he's joking so I told him I locked the door dy. Haha! He asked me why le? I said doors locked. And asked spend jor with bf? I said no. Then he said,' Ok la, Bye, Nights.. then hung up. The only phone call I recieved. I secretly wished that If only it were from 'someone' else. Wasn't too disappointed though because I know how badly Hope and Expectation can effect me so I wasn't playing around with them this time. Hoping to see him though this CNY. Ok, so now I'm hoping again.. ZZZZ..

I feel cold.. Don't remember feeling cold for awhile dy.. haha.. But I like the coldness today.. Palms and feet icey cold but still better than sweat. Teehee!

Met a new friend. Haha! Actually I met him at my 2nd cousin's wedding on the 6th of Feb but we did not talk. Then two days later, Steven came across a picture of me and my bro in his photo album in Facebook and sent me the link so I ma added him lo. He's the photographer hired for the wedding. Haha! The he said I look familiar and asked where we had met.. I was like =.= but then I'm already used to it cause I'm not actually noticeable in a crowd. Then we left comments and then ended up chatting in MSN.

I found out that he is also a Cancerian, and well, his personality is so much like mine. It's surprising actually cause I've not met someone like that. We were talking about limkokwing and then my worries about photography class and then saying about my reluctance to even take out the camera and take a snap because of major self consciousness. He says he understands and then we went through my FB profile and said that my description about myself is somewhat like him. I say my attitude is very unhealthy in a relationship cause I'll be caring too much about 'if I do this or if I say this, how will people react' thing. He says he was like that with his ex. Hmm.. Then he mentioned about one even more deadly. That is, is having hopes or expectations everytime and when those weren't met, he can get extremely extremely depressed. OMG! I'm always like that too. ZZzzz.. =(

He dislike driving too. Weird for a guy. And very bad sense of direction just like me. Haha!

Oh! he day dreams a lot too. And thinks of the past real often.. Something I do a dozen times a day. But this one maybe a lot of people are the same. Hmm.. Weird. Haha! But it's also good to know that someone out there is kinda like that too. At least you are not alone. Haha! Glad to know a new friend.



Ah~ I dreamt about Bie again~ How come so often lately? Hmm.. I cant really remember the details but it's a good one. =3

Another 2nd cousin's birthday again today. An even closer cousin than the previous one last month since we grew up together for he lives next door. Same church, same priest, same marriage rites and all, just different couple. But this couple is more awkward than the previous one. The priest kept teasing about it. " Today, Gabriel had some difficulties getting to Karen.. Ermm.. Did they make it difficult for you?" and he chuckles." I noticed Karen faced some difficulties get to you too, Gabriel. Because she can't walk properly." It's either the dress or the shoes. Haha! Then another one during the ring exchanging part. " Gently, gently, not too hard!!" cried the priest. Cousin was probably trembling or perhaps not gentle by nature, then mom laughed and say, " Aduh, so rough~" when he open the veil of the bride. The last part before walking out of the church as Mr. and Mrs. Ong was also funny. The priest says, " Arms.." expecting Karen to wrap her arms around cousin's but he go and hug and kiss the bride on the cheek leaving a wet spot where the bride awkwardly wipe off. " No, no, no... she put arms around yours", the priest said. Maybe because they are too excited or nervous, perhaps a mixture of all emotions. Nevertheless, they still look beautiful.

A question from the priest when the ceremony begun," Gabriel, when did you first meet Karen?" A stunning answer from my dear cousin, " 10 years ago.." and he chuckled. Everybody laughed after a Wow. The priest say," Wow! That's very long ago!" Haha! So we will have a new person coming into the family and living next door tonight. Haha! I've been wondering how long have they been together, cause I've been seeing Karen once in awhile for years. I guess maybe 5 or 6. but never expect a 10. But then they probably didn't date for 10 years la. He said met, not date. Dear cousin is 29 this year so they knew each other when he was 19. Sweet!

I stared up at Jesus on the cross hung above and asked, " What will ours become?" I did not manage to have a long talk with Him because my focus was back on the ceremony.

Now, Bro and I are being assigned as guard dogs, me stationed at my own house and my bro is next door. Haha! Kinda lonely now, except for the sounds of the television, the fan, and me typing on the keyboard. Haha! It's only 7 sth. Still have few hours to go.

I didn't know something small I did could make someone so happy. It makes me glad too because she is one of the VIP in my life. Haha! Thought I wouldn't be able to give her a present on her birthday so I gave her a really early one last year before she left Kuching and went to KL. Seems like I was able to give her something special even with our distance, an even better one than the one I gave her in September. Haha! It's weird how sometimes I'm able to help others but is helpless when it comes to my own problems. Anyways. I'm just saying. I don't mean I did something great. Just something teeny tiny. Haha! Anyways, just wanna say, anything for you my bestie! Hahahha! You would have done the same for me. =)

Miss teddy. Looks like I still need him. Though he isn't as effective as he used to be I'm still not ready to let him go. I realised the hours dragged longer as I lay awake at nights without dear teddy. But then I've already tried this long without teddy, trying to break the habit of being too dependant on him to get to sleep and if I stop now I'll be hugging a teddy for life. I want teddy to last. I want to keep teddy forever. But if I hug him every night he's bound to get ruined and smelly and dirty and will be thrown away. For the dear teddy and for myself, I have to stay strong.

I shouldn't be reading books at night before bed anymore. No matter how boring the book is, as long as it is a story book, my curiosity is too overpowering to not finish the book. Sigh~ I'm a cat, not a pig. And curiosity kills a cat. Haha! Cats are kinda curious, selfish, and you will notice they can easily find the best and most comfortable spot in the room to settle down. They can laze around just about anywhere and they enjoy being pampered by their owners. I'm think I'm kinda like that too. Cats are also very quite protective of themselves, careful enough to keep a safe distance from strangers or possible dangers yet not too far for who knows, you might get a new friend. Hahah! But then cats are stealthy, quick alert. It's a pity I don't poses those qualities. That's why I'm a garfield. Haha! Just not as evil as he is. XD

Dreams~

Dreams are mysterious don't you think? I've had lotsa weird dreams. Some dreams make sense, some doesn't. For instance, dreams of Wei Rong does. Every dream about him showed how far and out of reach he is even though he was just standing in front of me in those dreams, just like in reality. I always woke up with my heart throbbing in pain. However, I never have such dreams anymore after I meet JT, which is nice. Instead, JT appeared occasionally inside my dreams, and he took cared of them well, not a nightmare of himself, at least not yet. Last night, or rather, this morning, he appeared three times in three different scenes. The dreams were nice. First one was exciting and ridiculous, with castles and all, and fighting evil with wools @@! Haha! The second one was more closer to reality, taking place at Arang basketball court. We said byes and I mastered a courage and requested for a hug ( for it's been a long time since the last one) Which he agreed. Well the third is weird but not as far fetched as the first. I was traveling in some foreign place where I bump into him going to the same places. Was happy to see him yet, (Blimey! How come I bring our troubles into the dream?) thinking about how he was kinda cold, well I dunno what we talked but seems like things turned out right and the dream ended nicely.

Honestly, I think I dreamt about JT once before I know he exists. Well, I can't be sure it's him because he was a stranger in my dream back then and you know how vague dreams can be and the image won't last long in your memory. All I can remember about the stranger in the dream is a pair of quite big and beautiful eyes, tall, with a nice body. Mind you, I'm more into small eyes, but Wei Rong and JT became an exception. XD

Well, in that dream, a ship (or a boat? seems too large for a boat too small for a ship) was already leaving the shores (where to, I don't know). Then with all my might I ran and jumped and landed on the ship and found out that a guy (the stranger) had also done the same. After a while we both realised that there is no one else onboard. O.o Soon after that, we fell in love. The last part I remember before someone woke me up was both of us lying on the deck looking at the sky. Might sound ridiculous to you guys I know. Haha! After the weird but nice dream, I did not think about it again. Until after I met JT and after we begin, I was talking to Wying about how we met and how it started when I recalled the dream. Hahaha~ Wying says how come my dreams are quite in order like a story. Not all gua~

Most of the time my dreams are about me getting lost in a huge building with lots of doors and rooms and I will never find my way until I woke up with a start. Falling down from tall places. Teeth loosen and falling out. Measles all over. Lizards attack. Once I ate crab before bed and I dreamt them chasing me about in the house. Cooked crabs (because they are red) clicking their pincers angrily. Haha! Reminds me never to eat such food before I go to sleep. Hahahha! The first three are very common. Mom says she kept having dreams that involves her getting lost very often too. Are we lost souls? ZZzzzzz.. It's really bad that the fear is so real even if it's in a dream. You tend to wake up with cold feet and palms after getting lost or after the fall. Worse still if I dream about the "supernatural" you wake up shivering and feet and palms all cold. then you realise it's only 2 or 3 and you couldn't get back to bed anymore and with the image still fresh in your head that you wish to switch on the light but you are too frozen to move an inch. Sleeping after 3 is best.. even if you get such horrible nightmares you might at least wake up at 4 or 5. My neighbour wake up at around that hour, so when there's people awake and activities going on it's feels safer and getting back to sleep feels easier. Hahah!

The best nights are nights without dreams. It's not without dreams I suppose. It's just that the dreams are not vivid enough you don't remember dreaming at all. Such nights are nights you can sleep peacefully and not waking up still feeling extremely tired. Those nights are rare. But what's rare is precious lo. Hahah!

Some dreams are neither good nor bad. You know you dreamt and you know it isn't bad but you somehow can't remember what was it was about, what you did, and who was in the dream. Sometimes you know who's in it, but you can't remember what you did with that person. Haha!

Can't sleep!! Too early. Hair not dry yet~

hmm~~I've been told I give people misery. A first Zzzz~ I never knew that caring too much would make people feel so. Mayb other people weren't brave enough to tell me? hahah~ Now I see~

ROARRR~~~ No CNY clothes how to celebrate CNY la!! Disaster!! No trip to KL no shopping done. There, CNY just look even bleak~ Bah!! Ooo~ I'm gonna do the usual, hide in my room and sleep! Hehe~ I think I should get a dress. Yeah, I should~ Kim, when are u free my dear? Mom~ we go shopping, please? XD

CNY~ =.=

Clean the rails of the window on Saturday. Cleaned my room except for the mosquito netting on the windows yesterday. And also two fans. Today I did the stupid stainless steel gate. Looks simple but actually tedious. =.= Luckily dad didn't get one with lotsa patterns. Dunno if it is thoroughly clean.. Bro and dad did most of the outdoor stuff the previous years but dad got lazy and didn't help out at all this time except ordering us to do this and that when all of us already have our hands full, so I help bro who is busy washing the drain instead. Typical of him, but it just got worse. Zzzz. Bro kept complaining about dad not helping out except sitting there and point fingers. I actually shout that out in front of him once and he just answered me casually, " Of course la!! I'm the tauke!" ZZZ~

Most of the time I'm the one who did the least job around the house. Haha~ I normally do my room and dad's room and the last part, that is, when everyone is done and shaking their legs. I do the floor. Vacuum and mop~ Haha~ But this year I'm doing a bit more and lesser complaints although I still complained. I wonder how that happened. Hahaha!

Tomorrow need to clean the floor, the unused sink and also go out and buy cornflakes and honey. Seaweed and popiah skin dunno Unaco got bo~ Me seldom do this kind of shopping. Haha! Father is nagging again~ ZZ =.= Dunno how long I can stand!