Disclaimer: Not written to make anyone feel bad. Just a reminder for myself and for those who agreed on what I just said. And just posting my thoughts, and what I've realised or think i do, because some are things I did not know or understand before but probably understand a bit now.

Certain things I did not understand in the past but understand a bit now.

Now I understand why sometimes people just remove the other person from their contact lists, msn and fb once a relationship end or once he found someone new. If left there, u would always go and check out how the person is doing, his current updates, to find that the person is meeting a new one, falling in love all over again, and all his happiness comes from another person, what he talks about what he feels has nothing to do with u anymore. It hurts, unbearable, and sometimes to think that you wouldn’t mind or care and should feel happy for him, a status pops up and u couldn’t help feeling all upset, selfish, jealous and disappointed to find that it was all about another person. It sucks! But still.. I wont do it.. Just saying I realised why some people did that.

Lesson learnt and to do in the future regarding a relationship. 1st, don’t let any dude walk into your heart just like that. If he does, don’t let everything move so quickly. 2nd, start from being friends, get use to having him around and know him more. 3rd, make sure he can really accept everything about you, good or bad, before jumping into a relationship. 4th, if you do really like him, no matter what, before a relationship just put in a 20%. 5th, if in a relationship, don’t put in a 100%. He could love you this minute but not the next. It’s not his fault, nor yours. It’s just that you don’t know his feelings could change and he doesn’t know his could change too. So don’t ever forget that time and situations could change a person’s feelings and be stupid enough to go blind and give him everything only to regret certain things when the dream is over. Some things cannot be taken back or erased. 6th, don’t make it too easy for him. Some guys just like challenges. You do everything he says, pay 100% attention to him, try so hard to please him, his flames will fade in a sec. Trust me. Because everything got Easy people tend to get Uneasy. He needn’t have to please you because you don’t get mad at him. He needn’t have to try to apologize or fix things because you don’t start an argument. He needn’t have to persuade you to go and see him because he knows you would appear at his doorstep whether he feels like seeing you or not. He needn’t have to try and fulfill your wishes because you don’t ask. He needn’t have to try and change because you are OK with whatever he is. Yes, anyone would get bored with u in no time. Human just like challenges to grow and learn. You are not helping with that. Ok.. maybe not all are true.. but =/ i dono..

This is crazy, not feeling all too good again.. *breathe deeply* hope this post doesn't actually cause anything.. Just needed somewhere to get all these crap out of my head..